You are not the kind of boy who should be marrying the wrong girl and I'm afraid I am exactly what you should not have.
You want someone who you can take to the bar every night of the week, who will condone your workaholic nature, who will never force you into the marriage corner; someone who you can stand for long periods of time but once six months comes around you can ask to leave your apartment and she won't put up a fuss. She'll pack up and leave you to find another girl who will mold into the place she left behind in your sheets.
I am not the kind of girl who will wait around till she's forty for you to be ready for commitment. I am not the girl who will party with the best of them because, you know something, I don't like the taste of beer and I'd rather run my fingers over the page of a good book than feel my hand slip as I try to get a grip of the bottle. I am not the girl who will stand by and watch up without question. I am going to make you think and I am going to back you into corners because I am caged myself and maybe being trapped with a partner would be better. I will not fit the mold your girls leave beneath your comforter. I will make my own, and no matter how many you bring home to get rid of it, you'll never lose the patterns I left.
So when I kiss you in the parking lot, when it's dark and the air is crisp with the tension of lost souls and stagnant hearts, it is not because I want you to love me. What I want from you is more basic than that.
I want to feel again. But your lips are dead and cold like the icicles that cling to my breath and I know now that you would kill my soul, turn me into something like you, and I'm sorry but I am not the kind of girl who should marry the wrong boy and that is exactly what you are.
I love how the start and the end link. It feels like a sort of closure. And after I read it, I thought, would you even still want to be friends with that sort of person? Haha. For love though, one would deserve better.
Thank you! For me, yeah I do want to be friends with him because he is a good person, we just don't connect on important levels concerning a romantic relationship. Thanks for the by the way!
I like your comment in the description. It's...precise...and kind of funny, but funny isn't the right word and I can't think of the right one so funny will have to do.
and np ^^